when it comes to one visions, psychology can looks at it as your imagination to deal with your everyday life situations. imagination.......lol....our mind is our world. my imagination is endless when it comes to my life i guess. i thought up many ways to deal with it but one idea doesn't seem to work. lol! why because statics show the poles of such not working to it's full extent of potential. what does that mean? if we as humans act out our emotions based on our imagination. what does that mean? i wonder what it looks like when it comes to ones visions? i feel my 'visions' are my imagination because that part of the brain is what projects the images you see in your head, like a memory. lol! i day dream all day every day. even when going to bed i am day dreaming with my eyes closed so i can go to sleep thinking of what i want really. lol! what i want is dumb in a sense i guess. i don't know what i want really. these last months have been like hell in a way as to what is happening to me. why won't i stop this? why won't i shut up on my thoughts? why must i keep pouring out what i know on a public page? for any one to see it what i am thinking. because really, it is our thoughts that we speak to each other with and read on ones imagination by writing a story we have in our head. so, then where does the word lying come in ones thoughts? what is lying? how do we produce it as a human? what kind of lie was it? can we lie on accident based on we can be a air head sometimes? what does that even mean? the word elaborate(which means detail) is used very often when reading about TRIBES. why is detail important? is it our imagination that gives detail on what we are describing by our thoughts that projects an image in our head to deal with our every day life situations? detail...shoot...i can write elaborate but what about showing detail? if our actions are based on the emotions we are feeling at a time of an event but some humans hide their emotions but the actions still come out in a way. does that make sense? this is just me talking to myself, i guess. lol! who ever reads my journal will know of my thoughts. this is what i am thinking, imagining from an event that happened two summers ago. a humans five senses can trigger a past memory that they remember at the time or is a hidden memory they don't know of. does that make sense? im a high school drop out and beauty school drop out (no graduation. don't sweat it. beauty school drop out)(song from the movie grease. lol)i have no degree in education for any of the topics i speak about. there are just my thoughts.

i don't get quite time that much and today is a my time with no one else around. i have the peacefulness of writing my thoughts without my kids going mom mom mom mom. lol! or the other big kid that asks me tons of questions everyday. decisions decisions. when im alone writing about my thoughts, i am hopeing someone out there is watching me or hearing me. i am a true day dreamer. ive lived in the clouds my entire life it seems like. im just a silly day dreamer who's mind that can't get out of the clouds. it would be nice to be outside on a warm night, clear skys, the moon only given light to show my eyes where i step. to have people watch me be a spiritual schizophrenia cause my imagination holds my world as to who i am. for them to look at me and to believe what ever they want to believe. maybe to act out a story. story telling is well known in the middle east. how you tell the story by using your imagination or being who you are in your world of mind. this culture has knowledge to offer to people who are spiritual or looking knowledge but none will be shared. a race that hides in fear like the rest of us, who are to be persecuted. oh yeah, even living here in america and writing what i am thinking on a public site can get me persecuted, not knowing where my bloodline stands, will get me persecuted. having the fear of dying for what i believe in is scary. you read it books its not real. it's not your life. did my reading hold a special meaning as to being judged before dying? does my madness hold a purpose for any tribe? i am white, german, Belgium, scottish, irish, english and french. mainly german and Belgium. i can be persecuted for that of my bloodline. talking about gypsy's/roma when ive been told my last name is cut off cause of the war. i can see and understand why no jew or gypsy will find me. the holocaust was a war that no one can forget when once told of the history of it. it's stays in my mind.

well of course it does. every human has thought in their head as to what if..... we are scared of our own future. humans who are able to see visions in cards, crystal ball, tea leaves and/or meditating. all great stuff. focusing your eyes on a third eye. what if i had a gift for that kind? if i were to tell my family, how would they take it? who hears my thoughts? gypsy believe in predestine and arrange marriages. so if my reading was on love and i asked the wrong question. what does that mean? the person she told me about. was he a gypsy? or maybe i'm in the wrong place again. what makes sense to me does not make sense because things like that don't happen, right? i write to push out my thoughts to move on and let go of that energy. it is not in my place to go looking for such when i am with someone. raised without a father and raised with a mother but i am my own mother. what does that mean? why is my head thinking of such craziness? madness. lol! that poem book i read was filled of someones thoughts of madness. pushing away my thoughts/imagination on what is going on with me is a change. gypsy adapt to change easily. this change, i don't know what it is. i don't go anywhere really, so the internet is my access to the world i guess. i can imagine myself being a gypsy shaman wife to help her husband in ceremonies. because to me, no matter what culture you are or raised with. i believe a man is man and he holds the title to being the first. he is the one that makes the actions when the woman is the one gives the ideas to the kings so he can make it happen. being a woman holds a title of sexuality, imagination, mother, cleanness. being clean to a gypsy is very important. bad hygiene is not ok. to be clean means not just physical. mind, body and spirit. so, maybe to a gypsy i would be unclean in all three ways. if there visions produce to see us internally and external, then i am unclean. a gypsy vision goes beyond the boundaries of being human. yet we are all human.