Its 9.30pm and i'm still packing. There is one box to go, and i'm scared to start it incase i have bits and bobs left over. At 3pm tomorrow a car is going to come and take me away. There will be tears. I am going to find it so difficult to leave this family, we are a part of eachother now. So far i've been doing so well not thinking about it, that it really has snuck up on me. Other things have snuck up too, like writing goodbye cards and cancelling gym membership. Clothes to Oxfam and coins changed. Hair cut and dyed. All things which have been left drifting on the edge of my mind. Tomorrow i am off to Bracknell to stay with Richard and Louise. My brain hurts with all this organising. Toiletries have been the hardest. Which to ship home (can do without for 6 weeks) Which to take to Ecuador and which to have on the plane. Its all sorted now, but ive had to make some hard decisions. Going back upstairs now to tackle the (hopefully) last box. Take a deep breath and unplug the stereo.......

I mustn't forget about Jess. She deserves special mention. She broke the mould for me. The what english people are like mould. Fabulous amazing girl. She is a little pink sparkly bubble that bounces around my world. I love her muchly and will miss her extremely.

Also Neil gets a special mention for being honestly and sincerely smitten with me. He's a genuine salt of the earth Langfordian, makes me feel special and cherished. He deserves the very best of all things in life and i hope they come to him.